Sometimes it's so hard to live with go-with-the-flow attitude. Because I don't want to plan everything in my life many months ahead and when you have a regular job you just have to plan everything. I hate that. And then it's so so hard to have to wait for something so exciting that you could just sell every little thing in your life to just skip to the thing you're waiting. Hard!!!! And because of that it's so so so hard to keep a motivation to keep everything regular going on. Sundays and Mondays are horrible.